If I Were in The Hunger Games...

I would convince every good perrson that wasn't suicidal to team up with me and then we would fight the Capitol by protecting eachother and sharing resources.  Then either we would all win, or only one of us would, but either way the person who won wouldn't have done it by murdering everyone in sight.  That would make the Capitol the maddest and would spark hope in the rebel that if they all come together they can overthrow the Capitol and be happy.  That is all. Oh, and to let you know, the later at night I post my blogs the more emo they get.

FEELINGS

I feel like letting my feelings out on a number of topics, becuase, really, the only people who read this are Kayla and maybe one other person I've never met.  I'm not one YouTube.  I don't sing in a Wrock band.  I'm just that random girl who isn't popular and never will be, even amogst those who are nerds like me.  I'll always be that dork standing in the corner and shoving my way into a group that has at least one person that is friendly to me.  It's always been that way.  I'm not pretty. I *can't* be pretty.  I can straighten my hair and wear tons of make up and go on a diet and wear only Aeropostale clothes, or whatever, but I'll still be a dork.  I don't have social skills.  Even the people that do accept me leave me out, only talking to me every once-and-a-while.  I think that I have amazing friends.  I love them.  But I think that in the end they'll all get tired of me and start drifting away.  The girl that was my best friend until I moved had already started slipping away even before I moved.  And afterwards, there was no hope that we would ever really be close again.  She's now one of the "popular" kids at her school and has a constant flow of boyfriens, where as I've never had a guy like me in my life.  It's kind of depressing.  Sometimes I just have to cry.  Atheists confuse me.  I know that if I didn't believe God was there, I wouldn't last more than the next few months.  Sometimes I still feel as if I've been abandoned.  The guy I like is one of the "popular" people.  He used to be really good friends with Kayla, so I know that he's really an amazing person, but he can be a total jerk.  Even though he is one, everytime he smiles I can't help but smile, too.  It's involuntary.  I just really like his smile.  There are other people that I think I *could* like.  I like them enough and they actually talk to me, but it's not the same.  I tend to talk too much and get really annoying, so maybe I'll start keeping my mouth shut and only answering direct questions from everyone but the few people I really trust.  A few people have told me I'm funny, but I don't think I am.  Keep in mind that two of these people are my little siblings who are easily amused.  Someday I want to gather all of my "friends" and my real ones, too, and tell them to put an "x" on a peice of paper if they've ever said something about me that they wouldn't want me to know they said.  I bet at least half of them would put an "x" if they were truthful.  The only way I can think of to be accepted is to change who I am completely.  I don't want to do that.  I want to be more like Kayla, whom people just seem to love.  I want to be thin and pretty.  But I know that won't happen.  I could go a week without eating more than 200 calories a day and only lose one pound or so.  So a diet definitely wouldn't do anything.  I could go for fat, ugly guys, but I don't like any of them.  Even if I was surrounded by Nerdfighters, I wouldn't make friends with more than a few.  They would all go towards Kayla or someone more popular, like Kara.  As you may be able to tell, I am a little jealous of a lot of people.  And I'm not even that nice of a person.  I have a really bad temper and get annoyed easily.  Maybe that contirbutes to people not liking me.  I don't know.  I don't want to talk about it anymore.

     So, in good news, my friend and I made up a good name for a Wrock band.  No Post on Sundays.  I don't know why I love it that much.  Also, there is a slight possibility that I might see Kayla tomorrow, but it's unlikely.  I finished The Hunger Games around one last night/this morning.  It was so good, but I don't even know what was so addictive about it.  It just was.  I convinced my mom to buy me Catching Fire (which I didn't think I stood a chance of doing) in exchange for me doing a whole lot of cleaning tomorrow.  Oh, the things I do for books. 

Sexy: Nerd boys who love to read, especially if it's Harry Potter they love to read.
Unsexy: Me, but you probably already knew that. =P

This Explains Why I Am Not Fond of Hermione's Parents

Ok.  I know I haven't posted in so long, but I have semi-acceptible excuses.  So, again, I have been absent from the internet.  Lets just say that the only internet things I've been doing lately are email and tweeting via my phone.  Yeah.  And yesterday, Saturday, and friday I watched some Doctor Who and A Very Potter Musical.  I feel ashamed to admit that with my bussiness doing stuff (none of it was very important) I never got past the first few videos of it when they first posted it.  But now I am a few videos into AVPM and I'm in the middle of the first episode of Series 3 of Doctor Who.  I love Doctor Who, but something has been bothering me.  So, one day, Rose gets sucked into this void thingy and is living in the alternate universe with her mum, dad, and Mickey (and the Doctor's clone guy thing, but that hasn't happened yet, so...) and she can never get back to the world with the Doctor and he can never see her again.  Well, way of in Series four (I think) The Doctor meets one of his future companions.  Ok, I hate writing and reading in present tense, so that's over.  That companion girl has his sonic screwdriver.  The Doctor said that's the ultimate sign of love from him, or something.  That's what bothers me.  There are two possibilities.  One: The Doctor manages to die so quickly that he has no time to regenerate and she takes the screwdriver from him.  Two: He never really loved Rose and this girl replaced her and made him forget about her.  I would like to think that the former is true, though I hate the idea of the Doctor dying, simply because I don't like that girl and The Doctor is only allowed to be with Rose.  The latter of the possibilities is the most likely, though.  This one puts the viewer into a kind of anti-Doctor position, but I still love him and he will come from Gallifrey and we will marry.  Just kidding.  I'm not stupid enough to believe that a Time Lord would ever be content with someone that would age and die before him; it would hurt too much.  But if you think about it, how many of the companions has he probably told he loved?  I don't know the answer, but I'm guessing most of them.  Maybe he loved Rose a bit more, but he didn't give her the screwdriver, so he couldn't have loved her as much as they want us to believe.  Enough of this pessimism.  hghhgh.  I was trying to see what would come up if I hit my head on the keyboard.  I think my forehead likes Hayley Hoover.  A lot.  It typed her initials... twice. 

     So, in happier news, I saw my best friend, Kayla, today.  Saying that is kind of pointless, becuase she's probably the only one who reads this, but ah well.  I shall write as if I had readers, anyway.  We looked at stuff in Hot Topic and Rue21 for a while, me loudly gagging whenever I saw anything Twilight.  I hope no Twi-tards were in there.  They might come and kill me while I'm sleeping, but like Edward would.  Then we went to Panera Bread where Kayla complained about the bread in her bread bowl being soggy with soup.  Crazy girl.  Then we went to Books-a-Million and I left Nerdfighter notes in a copy each of Paper Towns, Looking for Alaska, Let it Snow, and An Abundance of Katherines.  I only had four notes.  *shrugs* It made me feel pretty dang awesome, which I am because I am made of Awesome.  If I were to go to Hogwarts, I would be sorted into the House of Awesome along with all the other Nerdfighters and we could fangirl the more popular Nerdfighters and be awesome with all of them.

    After having fun with Kayla, I had to go to the Dentist, which inevitably means me opening my mouth, the dentist telling me to open it wider, and me not being able to open it wider because my mouth is tiny.  Not cool.  I was on FML while I was wainting for the other dentist lady to get in there.  I like that website.  Lot's of love and goodbye!

I almost forgot Sexy/Unsexy!
Sexy: Draco Malfoy in AVPM.  Not the actress, but the character.  I love how every time he enters a room he starts rolling on the floor, chairs, and table.
Unsexy: The fact that I must get up at six tomorrow.  I hate school.