Yesterday Kayla, Morgan and I went to the mall and bought Blood Pops (98 cents a bag!) and ran around not buying anything else, just having fun. Then Kayla and I continued on to a youth group/worship thing called Ignited 12:21 at her friend's church. They started out with wheelchair dodge ball,which isn't really in wheelchairs, and then progressed on to a game called Onion. A person sits in the middle of a circle of people with their arms linked. Then another circle forms around them, then another. Well, the number of layers depends on the amount of people. The other team has numbers and whenever a particular number is called the people with that number run and try to peel the onion. You have to link arms very tightly so that you don't get pulled away. It really fun, but my arms are sore now. Also, Ted from With Open Eyes was in front of me and leaning on me half of the time we played that game. I tried not to smell his hair, but then gave in and it smelled quite good. When they become famous I'll be able to say, "Well, I smelled Ted's hair before they were famous and it smelled good." ^-^ It would be interesting to see people's reactions to that.
Now, about the more religious part. The beginning of it was the youth leader reading about how God wants all of your heart, not just the part you're not ashamed to show and how you have nothing to hide from God and whatever is going wrong needs to be told, anyway, because we can't handle it on our own. I got teary and almost started crying, just because I've had self-esteem issues for a while and I've not been able to fix them on my own. We ended up spreading out across the room and praying, during which I really started crying for several reasons. As I mentioned, I have low self esteem and both my dad and grandmother are dealing with cancer. My dad's is very minor prostate cancer and should be fixed by a surgery, but I'm scared that it won't be and maybe he'll be pat of that tiny percentage that doesn't survive. I'm not sure what I'd do without my dad. My grandmother has breast cancer, which I know also has I high survival rate, but my fears are the same for her. We were told to stand up and be free after we had let everything out. It was beautiful. We came back to the front after everyone was done praying and worshiped with music a little bit more. Then the youth leader got into how God's love is like a father's love, but even stronger. He then asked everyone who had never really had a father's love to come to the front. Because of this I had to back up and stop hugging Kaitlyn, who'd I'd now like to consider my friend. He got his children to come on stage and hugged them. He was crying and they were crying and everyone was crying, except maybe some guys. Males tend to cry less then females.
A bit later, after all of the crying and hugging of crying people, one boy shared a dream he'd had about how a man was walking to an alter with a war going on between angels and demons above him and every time someone came up and touched him, praying, another angel was added to the battle and eventually the demons were defeated. We then went around telling our friends we loved them and even some people we didn't know. Then came the two biggest group hugs I've ever been in. It was amazing and I hope to join that youth group someday soon.
So, up until a little while ago I was sitting on my bed drinking water out of my Boylan bottle, eating a blood pop, and listening to With Open Eyes. I am still listening to them. Obviously, I miss yesterday a bit too much. I should be going on the 12th and there's no way I am missing out on the 19th (there's a man flying in from Cheffield, England and WOE is playing!), even if that means I have to force my grandfather to not want us to go to dinner with his for his birthday until the next day.
Unsexy: People that don't believe in the love and grace of Jesus Christ, but I've nothing against you if you don't. =)
Sexy: Christian/Hardcore/Experimental bands (as WOE is discribed on their Myspace)
Saturday, January 23, 2010
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